i finally let myself look at the camaya tag after avoiding it completely after cam died and i am so emotionally wrecked and angry right now why did he have to die fjvk nlsndj it wasn’t fair
he was just a really really sad boy who just wanted to be happy so bad that it destroyed him. he had people who loved him and who made him happy, and he was happy for little periods of time. but in throughout that time, he lived in constant fear of losing that happiness and eventually the fear just swallowed him whole. and that just breaks my heart.
he was so sweet and so genuinely good. he and maya were magic because they let themselves be vulnerable around each other—this was what made them great to watch. they both loved each other in that pure, unselfish way characteristic of first love and when he believed that being with him was only going to hurt her, he did what he thought would take to save her. he was already very sick, but that was what pushed him over the edge.
after going through all this again i just can’t support maya with anyone but him. i don’t think she’d ever let herself be as vulnerable with anyone again after him; as much as i like matlingsworth, i think the only one who’d come close is zig. idk what they’re going to do with her character in the upcoming block but i hope they finally address cam again because they’ve basically been manhandling the long-term effects of his death on maya (and also everything in general like wow degrassi has gone south) because he was such an influential part of her life and so far, he hasn’t gotten the respect that he deserves